tick tock tick tock

I cant imagine how time flies.
I havent been updating the blog because I really did not have the time to pen down my thoughts.
It was work that took me away from everything else. I hardly have time for myself, for my kids and also for my friends.
I havent had lunch for months I guess....but this body has adapted to the change that I dont feel hungry till maybe after 5pm. Other than worrying about recurring gastric attacks (used to get gastric when I was younger) , I am grateful that my weight has dropped by 6kg.

Anyway, so many things happened. Work has improved but not without sacrificing other things.
Eg, I only see the kids before they go to school. When I am back home, they are asleep most of the time. Sigh....
The kids studies are so badly affected. Without me at home, they conned our helper to let them play computer and they ignored their school work. I feel so guilty.
I dont bake anymore, neither do I cook. We eat out most of the time and the kids eat whatever the helper cooks. Sometimes, when my mom feels like it, she'll send some food over to our place.
I work 7 days a week, bo pian....
I eat work, I live work, I shit work, I breathe work.
Sadly, I even dream work. *sob* *sob*
I am tired...I am so tired.... I am so very tired.

We just had 2 exhibitions this month and 2 more coming up during the fasting month. I have calluses all over the sole of my feet and my big toe feels numb most of the time. I have to get a new pair of shoes but I dont have time to shop. Just when I thought things could slow down this week, 2 customers have to fly down today from abroad and that means we have to spend time with them for a while This is not good because when we spend time with them, my work in the office does not progress. My in tray is overflowed with papers that I cant throw and the accounts is in a mess coz I have not updated it for ages.
I have told the spouse that I could not cope with the overwhelming workload, he told me to bear with it for a while till business truly picks up so that he can employ a full time staff just doing accounts and other admin function.
This is so that I can concentrate on other things which I am better at...like sleeping *snore*.

Right now, I just wish that time slows down a little so that I can catch up on many things that I have put aside for too long.
Farah has yet to go for her 18 months jab....she is 26months mind you...I am 8 months overdue.
Zahra has yet to receive her birthday present coz I have no time to go grab one nice one for her, if not for my mom, she would not even have a birthday cake....for her gift, I am 15days late and she reminds me to get her one every day without fail....sigh...I am such a failure.
Naseer spectacles is broken and the optical shop is just downstairs but I have no time to pop down to pass the specs to them till like a month after he had passed me the specs, poor boy.
and Feroz, I still owe him Masked Rider vcd which he had asked me to buy with the money he saved up from school. He passed me the money 2 months back....

I cant imagine what else I have yet to do, frankly, I dont wanna even think about it.

Anyway, it was good to find time to update it here...till then.